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November 24, 2012


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my previous journal ended up being more than i could respond too. i apologize.
although i read each and every one of your comments. every one.
i always do, so never you worry or feel unheard with me.

someone mentioned in one of their comments...that i should tell you all some things about myself.
to perhaps, enlighten those of you i called phantoms. i hadn't noticed that i seem to be pretty phantom-like myself.
i never really thought of it. i kind of am...i dunno. phantomly. that's right, phantomly.
i made up a word.

i don't know where to begin with something like....introducing myself. hhhhnnng
i feel weird about talking about myself. even though, i do it all the time...

welp. my names's casey. i have two brothers. one older, one younger. i'm a middle kid. i wish my brothers and i were closer because i love them a whole lot. my favorite color is green. my favorite animals is a bear. or a cat. i don't capitalize because my mom told me about e.e. cummings in the library when i was about twelve...and i thought, if he didn't capitalize his i's, i wasn't going to either. because "i" never felt very important. and none of my teachers seemed to mind. so...then it eventually spread to all capitalizing in general...

i wish i lived in a house in the woods. with my cat.
my cat is the coolest cat ever. his name is sam.
i also have another cat who is arguably the coolest cat ever.
her name is cereal. i named them both. and they make me happy.

music is a giant part of my life. i grew up in a musical family. my dad plays guitar, my mom sings, my two brothers also play guitar. collectively, my two brothers play...a lot of instruments. bass, drums, trumpet, keyboard, i dunno....i on the other hand, fell in love with the accordion. i own two. and i play sometimes when people aren't around, or sleeping...which is difficult because usually people are either around, or sleeping lol. but when i do play, it gives me the best feeling. it's like breathing music. there's also a very old reed organ in my dining room that my brothers and i fool around on. it reminds me of a giant accordion. they're very similar.

to play it....feels like a new set of lungs.
i struggle with depression and anxiety and when i feel like i can't breathe, it's nice to sit down and breathe a few chords with my music-lungs ♥

or to sit outside and breathe cold air at night. it's one of my favorite things to do to relax. sit outside with my cat friend, sam, and we breathe cold air. and maybe sing a song or two to the sky.


now you know things about me. and feel free to talk to me and stuff...
i know i'm just a person you watch., i'm a person. and i like to share my life and feelings.
that's why i'm on this site in the first place. that's why....i' artist...

and now i leave you with a bjork video.
cause i'm a bjork dork! and i'm REALLY REALLLY sad right now!!! and this song makes me feel happy when i listen to it!!
because who else can make a song about losing your keys so awesome??? nobody! i'm using excessive punctuation to raise my mood!!!…

my formsping. just so you know.


wellby Cwoz

Journals / Personal©2012-2014 Cwoz
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4mmoh Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
well that explains why you don't capitalize. Honestly, I don't mind it
but I did wonder about it before. The accordion is beautiful. And the idea about a
new set of lungs is really amazing, cause it's true yet I never noticed. (plays violin)
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
well now you knowwww~

i wish i could play violin. such a neat instrument.
but yeah. i got myself some music lungs.
WeAreSevenStudios Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Student
ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012
i never thought i'd ever meet person who didn't capitalize their i's for the same reason i do. i didn't get it from e. e. cummings, but i kind of wish i had because it would've made it easier to explain to teachers. i always had to make up reasons, usually that capital looks like an l.
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
yeah...i...just don't see the reasoning in capitalizing myself. haha
it's always felt wrong. since i first learned how to write.
ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
i agree completely.
haha. i went on for years writing i's the so-called proper way, but eventually i became a teenager who was awful at rebelling so i finally stopped capitalizing my i's and started writing my name differently for every person who asked how to spell it.
did you actually always write them that way when you were young, even though you were told it was supposed to be capitalized?
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
well, i was home schooled up till 9th grade.
so, i had been capitalization my i's because my mom told me to.
but right before i entered high school, i had taken up a big interest in poetry. and that's when my mom told me about e.e. cummings. and i stopped capitalizing my i's after that completely.
ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
ah, interesting. haha. she both made you write them properly and gave you a reason not too.
e. e. cummings is amazing though.
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
yeah, she's cool that way. lol
and i agree.
ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
yes, she seems like a nice lady.
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