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my previous journal ended up being more than i could respond too. i apologize.
although i read each and every one of your comments. every one.
i always do, so never you worry or feel unheard with me.

someone mentioned in one of their comments...that i should tell you all some things about myself.
to perhaps, enlighten those of you i called phantoms. i hadn't noticed that i seem to be pretty phantom-like myself.
i never really thought of it. i kind of am...i dunno. phantomly. that's right, phantomly.
i made up a word.

i don't know where to begin with something like....introducing myself. hhhhnnng
i feel weird about talking about myself. even though, i do it all the time...

welp. my names's casey. i have two brothers. one older, one younger. i'm a middle kid. i wish my brothers and i were closer because i love them a whole lot. my favorite color is green. my favorite animals is a bear. or a cat. i don't capitalize because my mom told me about e.e. cummings in the library when i was about twelve...and i thought, if he didn't capitalize his i's, i wasn't going to either. because "i" never felt very important. and none of my teachers seemed to mind. so...then it eventually spread to all capitalizing in general...

i wish i lived in a house in the woods. with my cat.
my cat is the coolest cat ever. his name is sam.
i also have another cat who is arguably the coolest cat ever.
her name is cereal. i named them both. and they make me happy.

music is a giant part of my life. i grew up in a musical family. my dad plays guitar, my mom sings, my two brothers also play guitar. collectively, my two brothers play...a lot of instruments. bass, drums, trumpet, keyboard, i dunno....i on the other hand, fell in love with the accordion. i own two. and i play sometimes when people aren't around, or sleeping...which is difficult because usually people are either around, or sleeping lol. but when i do play, it gives me the best feeling. it's like breathing music. there's also a very old reed organ in my dining room that my brothers and i fool around on. it reminds me of a giant accordion. they're very similar.

to play it....feels like a new set of lungs.
i struggle with depression and anxiety and when i feel like i can't breathe, it's nice to sit down and breathe a few chords with my music-lungs ♥

or to sit outside and breathe cold air at night. it's one of my favorite things to do to relax. sit outside with my cat friend, sam, and we breathe cold air. and maybe sing a song or two to the sky.

there.

now you know things about me. and feel free to talk to me and stuff...
i know i'm just a person you watch. but...like, i'm a person. and i like to share my life and feelings.
that's why i'm on this site in the first place. that's why....i'm...an artist...

and now i leave you with a bjork video.
cause i'm a bjork dork! and i'm REALLY REALLLY sad right now!!! and this song makes me feel happy when i listen to it!!
because who else can make a song about losing your keys so awesome??? nobody! i'm using excessive punctuation to raise my mood!!!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nPNBi…

also.
www.formspring.me/cerealismyca…
my formsping. just so you know.

goodnight
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4mmoh Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
well that explains why you don't capitalize. Honestly, I don't mind it
but I did wonder about it before. The accordion is beautiful. And the idea about a
new set of lungs is really amazing, cause it's true yet I never noticed. (plays violin)
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
well now you knowwww~

i wish i could play violin. such a neat instrument.
but yeah. i got myself some music lungs.
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WeAreSevenStudios Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Student
:hug:
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ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012
i never thought i'd ever meet person who didn't capitalize their i's for the same reason i do. i didn't get it from e. e. cummings, but i kind of wish i had because it would've made it easier to explain to teachers. i always had to make up reasons, usually that capital looks like an l.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
yeah...i...just don't see the reasoning in capitalizing myself. haha
it's always felt wrong. since i first learned how to write.
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ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
i agree completely.
haha. i went on for years writing i's the so-called proper way, but eventually i became a teenager who was awful at rebelling so i finally stopped capitalizing my i's and started writing my name differently for every person who asked how to spell it.
did you actually always write them that way when you were young, even though you were told it was supposed to be capitalized?
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
well, i was home schooled up till 9th grade.
so, i had been capitalization my i's because my mom told me to.
but right before i entered high school, i had taken up a big interest in poetry. and that's when my mom told me about e.e. cummings. and i stopped capitalizing my i's after that completely.
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ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
ah, interesting. haha. she both made you write them properly and gave you a reason not too.
e. e. cummings is amazing though.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
yeah, she's cool that way. lol
and i agree.
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ZombieFuse Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012
yes, she seems like a nice lady.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
c:
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Phototard Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012
i'm glad you decided to become a little less phantomly. (doesn't phantomlike fill almost the same function? although there can never be too many words. i often like the childish ones better anyway)

i can't do anything musical at all!!! to top it all off, i'm also a pretty terrible dancer. many hours have been spent shaking my fists angrily at the universe for my total lack of musical ability. then again i was never interested in being musical in the quieter, more private sense that you seem to be. that's really nice, that you've found some sort of 'spiritualism' in playing music. listening is good enough for me.

thanks for turning me on to björk! she is sort of incredible. very unpredictable, but maybe that's because i haven't listened to her for long enough.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012   Traditional Artist
bjork. is the best.
THE BEST.
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yurika-sketches Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist
wow i wish my family was musical.
im in band in school and my mom was a flute player but she said she was an average player and she doesnt play anymore
and i want to learn accordion so bad! it sounds great its a great instrument :D
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:iconcwoz:
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
it is a great instrument. really challenging. and really heavy ;-; but so beautiful and worth the effort, i think. my mommy used to play the violin. but she doesn't even remember how to anymore. i'd love to play the flute. hmm
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noxious-melancholy Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012
Meow. 💗
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist









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noxious-melancholy Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
You and your family should start a band.
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:iconcwoz:
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
oh man.
that would be weird. haha
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noxious-melancholy Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
That would be awesome. The W-------- Family band.
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:iconcwoz:
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
the wallace family band. oh dear lord. ;-;
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noxious-melancholy Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
It'd be a wonderful way for you and your family to spend time together!!!!!! You could have matching costumes. Or you could all dress up in different animal suits
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ilyilaice Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012
accordions are cool.
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:iconcwoz:
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
YEP
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baberscamille Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Student General Artist
:) that's a nice summary of you.
yeah, music is fun, i really like sitting down and making up songs on the piano. i do own an accordion, but it's more of a toy one than anything. My grandpa played accordion a lot before he died, so i've played a real one once or twice, they're fun but heavy.

My dad plays drums, and is constantly switching bands, i do have a guitar and a violin that i play on occasion. Music is a good outlet i think :)
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
they are so heavy...ugh

i didn't know you play the piano...or guitar...or violin! c: that's great
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baberscamille Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Student General Artist
lol it's a work out for the arms XD

hahah, my dad has a major in music education, and while he supports me doing drawing-art he has always hinted at how he'd like me to be a musician if i liked it XD, i DO like music, but the idea of performing live scares me in a way that drawing never could XD
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stitchedXtogether Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012
It was great to hear some stuff about you c: You may just 'be a person we watch,' but a lot of us DA'ers form connections with the artists we choose to watch. I would love to hear you play your accordion <3
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
i'm not very good at it yet
:heart:
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stitchedXtogether Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
I'm sure you are far better than I, having never even touched an accordion :iconiloveitplz:
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:iconcwoz:
Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
well maybe lol
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stitchedXtogether Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012
I guarantee it, my friend
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iOwnTheStars Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
it made me happy to read that music is a giant part of your life,, and that you love the accordion. because it's a giant part of mine too, and i also grew up in a musical family. i could sit for hours and hours playing piano and never get tired
it just makes sense you know
and also, the capitalizing thing was interesting. i mean i dont capitalize either but mostly just because i'm too lazy and because i like the way sentences look without capital letters
i wish i lived in the woods too.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
good c: happy is good.
i didn't know you played piano. that's great. i'm really not that good at the accordion yet, but i'm determined. it's such a wonderful instrument to me.
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iOwnTheStars Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yeah, if you're determined, then you'll get somewhere with it :)
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ToxicDesolation Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
It was fun reading this. I read over it twice(not to be a creep haha) I have a cat just like sam and cereal. She's sitting on my lap right now. She always sits on my shoulder and follows me. She's such a cool cat. she's my little kitty friend. haha bears are awesome. i love bears and mountain lions.c: I love music too. i play guitar, but im not that good at it honestly. it is still fun to play when im feeling down or stressed. music is amazing. i struggle with the same things so i also like to play music to help me breathe. i love to sit and enjoy the night sky...it feels so good. and i love how if it's a full moon everything glows. night air is so much easier to breath than day air. and i don't know why but staring out at the night sky with the moon's glow shining around me broadens my perspective. or it just gives me a small bit of hope...for a while.
reading this made me smile. it made me feel a bit better too. thank you casey <3
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
awww...
i used to have a cat that sat on my shoulders. her name was noodle. she died. but she was great. probabaly one of the craziest cats i've ever met.

you know, i think the cold air issss just easier to breathe...i think it opens up my airways or something. i'm glad i could make you smile, that makes me feel happy. smiles are important.
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ToxicDesolation Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
aww im sorry about noodle. it is always awful when an animal friend passes. she sounds like ginger(my kitty) she is crazy but she is so sweet and adorable. she's really small too.

cold night air is easier to breathe. I love nighttime. It makes me feel safe and peaceful and maybe at ease for a while. it is even better when you're in a forest or nature. nobody really understood that.
i always love looking at your art or reading your journals, especially when im down or something. it really helps me. :)
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Pinia-Pon Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
awww... < 3
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
<3
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Rauxlen Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for telling us about yourself c:
I especially liked learning about music and stuff. Accordion's one of my favorite instruments, along with mandolin. I have both, but I can't play either very well.

Your cats sound adorable. Cats are cool c: I wish I could have one but my parents don't really like them.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
welcome.
ah, i'd love to own a mandolin. they sound so lovely.
and i hope you have a kitty one day. they're super great friends.
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Chipsticks Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love that you are into instruments like that. My family and friends are all really musical too but I can never get into playing things. I mean I really want to but I'm always too scared somebody might hear me so just sort of, pick up a guitar, strum once then get scared and put it back again before anyone notices.

But it always makes me happy when I see or hear someone playing something.

And sorry, I meant to comment on that last journal but I never know what to say.
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
i'm the same way with my accordion. super nervous about people hearing me. but. you'll never get better if you don't throw that aside and just pick it up and...play.

and that's okay. i was overwhelmed with comments anyway c:
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Chipsticks Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're right... It's just one of those things you know is irrational but keep doing anyway.
Hehe, there were a lot!
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paper-starrs Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012
i'm glad i know more about you. even though i just comment on your things or favorite your drawings and we don't really talk but yeah. i'm glad because you did seem kind of mysterious. and i listened to that song. lol it was nice. and i like how you don't capitalize because of e.e. cummings and i don't capitalize because i'm just too lazy. well. it was nice reading this. thanks for letting us know. nUn
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
yay, you're very welcome.
i love that song.

and maybe e.e. cummings gave me a reason to be lazy.
but really i've always had a problem with finding the reason to capitalize my i's...
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paper-starrs Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012
c:
i think it's great. there are so many good songs out there that i probably won't listen to, but i'm glad that i listen to this one. nUn
that's nice of e.e. cummings to give you an excuse to be lazy.
wow i have no idea what i'm saying lol. yeahh.
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Artsyturtle7 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
The woods are my ideal place to live also,It's just beautiful... I love snuggling up at night and looking up at the stars, talking until 2 am about deep stuff you wouldnt normally talk about...
those are the moments i wish would last forever...
I understand where your coming from with the depression and anxiety, maybe not to your degree, but I've experienced it before, I still am .
I dont know exactly why your going through these things though, so it's hard for me to give you advice, but just remember to keep holding on, because your worth it.
Sam and cereal, cute names :love: cats are awesome, and bears of course, Polar bears are bjorks favourite animal :happybounce:
Music Is amazing, life would be incomplete without it :stereo:
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Cwoz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012   Traditional Artist
:heart:

i had no idea that was bjorks favorite animal. neat!
music is definitely vital to me. so is nature.
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